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"Are they triplets?" "No, I found the other one in the parking lot and thought, 'why not?'"

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Time and Money

I’m feeling a little low today. I feel like I am either forgetting about things or I don’t have enough time to get things done.

We signed the kids up for swimming lessons. We were going to bang them out over the course of two weeks. Then I got a job. I rescheduled swimming lessons to every Saturday morning. Every. Single. Saturday I have had my alarm on my phone go off to remind me about swimming in 30 minutes. Every. Single. Time I pretty much drop an F bomb because I have forgotten about swimming.

The husband has been under the weather and not sleeping well. I was working this past Saturday morning. I felt my phone vibrate but didn’t check it right away. Guess what it was. Yep, that effing alarm saying “Hey you forgetful dumbass, it’s swimming!!”

I checked my phone at 9:20am. Swore as I read the message on the screen. Dialed husband. Woke husband. Said swimming in 10 minutes. He swore and I hung up on him, not because of the swearing but because I needed to do my job.

I have two calendars. Well, three if you count the one on my phone. The two paper calendars are located in the kitchen and my office. The two places in the house that grown ups can usually be found. I have even colour coded the damn things!!! Yet, lately I can’t get my shit together. I am forgetting all sorts of crap and this is not me. (I left this to make lunch…guess who forgot to come back after lunch was done!?!)

This brings us to money. The kids all need to get jobs today and start saving for the future. We did our back to school supply shopping today. It’s a damn good thing I have a job. I picked up a few good deals on crayons and markers for around the house, but geez I feel like I spent quite a bit on just the crap they need to take to school. We also hit up the dollar store for some afternoon crafts. Our weather isn’t sure if it wants to rain or not and this seems to be giving me a nice headache. I also just need a break after working 4 days straight. It was steady at work. I work in the ER and there was something in the air this weekend. We were just busy busy busy. I felt bad for the nursing staff as they were short staffed and very over worked. Thankfully I am off until Friday to get in some much needed snuggle time with the kids.

According to Google, there are 24 days 6 hours 59 minutes and 40 seconds until the first day of school. So enjoy that!


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Back to school may just break my bank account

My father used to joke that he was going to cut my big toes off every year when I needed a new pair of shoes. Now that I have 3 pairs of feet as well as my own to put shoes on, I am starting to understand a bit better why he joked about this.

This year Isabelle needed outdoor and indoor shoes. Goodbye $130. Aidan needed outdoor shoes. Goodbye $65. Madeline needed outdoor shoes. Goodbye another $65. I still have yet to purchase back to school items on that wonderful list the school sends home with the final report card. Throw in Isabelle will be needing some new clothes for this fall/winter.

I feel like I should have kept my second paying job. Back to school is costing way too much money. I realize that the teachers aren’t getting enough money to cover the costs of supplies. I don’t mind buying a few things here and there throughout the year. Honestly, I’d rather they asked us to do that. Dropping nearly $150 on supplies at the end of the summer can be a little rough.

We have kept our summer rather low key, but I still have a few plans up my sleeve to entertain the kids. Yet, I find myself weighing the costs of these activities against what I will need for back to school.

Isabelle’s list is a little better this year. She will need 4 colour specific duo-tangs. Thankfully I still have a stash from last year. 1pkg of Crayola crayons. 1pkg of Crayola washable markers. 2 highlighters. 1 thick black Sharpie and 1 thin black Sharpie. (Isabelle seems really pumped about this, who knew Sharpies were so important to a third grader!!) 6 jumbo glue sticks. 1 calculator. 4 white erasers. 3 boxes of Kleenex. And finally 1 package of unscented, alcohol free baby wipes.

Isabelle is going to be pissed that she is not to have a pencil case or box this year. She was over the moon last year when she had to buy one. Then she had her spirit crushed when her English teacher sent it home. Not sure why the French kids need one and the English ones don’t. Likely I will be buying her one regardless and she can keep her stuff at home in it.

Here’s what the twins need, keep in mind this will all be x2.

Duo-tangs, not plastic. White, red, black, green yellow, orange, blue. (Again, I still have  stash from last year.) 1 pkg Crayola crayons. 1 pkg of pencil crayons. 1 pkg of Crayola washable markers. 1 highlighter. 2 large glue sticks. 1 washable white school glue. 1 pencil box. 1 white eraser. 3 boxes of Kleenex and 2 packages of unscented, alcohol free baby wipes.

My plan is to start shopping for all of this soon. I have waited and then had a really hard time finding what I needed. However, if you go too soon then you are still paying the regular price for most of it. Isabelle has been on me lately to get out and get the shopping done. She is in love with back to school shopping. I asked her what was so special about it and she just loves the idea of getting all new stuff. I reminded her that she doesn’t get to use any of this until she takes it to school but she doesn’t seem to care.

Since buying them all new shoes, they have been wearing them almost non stop. I got up yesterday morning to all the kids still in pajama’s and wearing their shoes. It’s kind of adorable.

We made the trip to the Michigan Science Centre last week and the kids had a blast. I was a little worried that they were going to be bored since nothing has changed since the last time we went. Wrong. It was a great day! I didn’t take any pictures because I had my phone off and totally forgot that we have a regular camera! I hope to get them to the Hands on Museum in Ann Arbor before school starts. If not, I believe it’s fairly educational and worth missing school for!!

Work is going well. I work in a few hours and the kids aren’t pleased that I am 1. missing dinner and 2. not going to be tucking them in tonight and 3. will not be home to read Harry Potter.

Speaking of Potter. I am a total sucker for the Harry Potter Funko Pop figures. The guy at the store was trying to sell me the collector’s sleeve which will keep out all dust etc. Um, yeah we are collecting them, but not in the way most people are. The kids had those suckers out of the boxes before we even got in the van! So far we have Hagrid, Harry, Hermione in her dress, Ron, Dumbledore and Sirius Black. We are well in to book 5 and while I’m really enjoying it, the kids seem a little bored of this one. I have been trying to decide if perhaps we should put it away for a while and read some other books or just keep going. It’s hard to put them down because I am really enjoying how much they are able to recall from the other books. We even end up having little discussions about what we think is going to happen or what has happened in the past that could spark something in the future. I love seeing their little minds at work.

With back to school on the brain, I leave you with this as it always makes me chuckle!






Buried under Mom Guilt

I can’t believe it’s effing August 1st already! I would love to know what exactly happened to the month of June. I haven’t been on this blog in so long I can’t even recall what my last post was about. It’s highly likely that I am about to regurgitate some old stuff in this post.

I have a job. Well, I have two jobs. Okay, three. I have three jobs. Two of these jobs pay money. The third pays in piles of laundry, dirty dishes, toothpaste explosions and dog vomit on the floor.

I started the first paying job just before the end of the school year for the kids. I had lots of guilt about not being the parent to drop them off at school or even pick them up some days. By the time I got home it was time to sit down and eat and then begin the evening routine of clean up and baths and a chapter of Harry Potter before bed. Then the kids were asleep. It felt awful. Almost every night someone was crying because I wasn’t taking them to school or picking them up. They were telling me they hated that I was working.

The guilt creeps in. Bastard.

Three weeks into the new job, I get another job. This job is great. I am really enjoying it so far. It’s been an intense first two weeks of this job. Mix in I have also been working at the other paying job until they can replace me. I went two weeks straight with only two days off. Sure to some that’s no big deal. However, when you haven’t been working full time outside of the home on top of full time inside the home, it makes for a hellish two weeks.

More tears. More piles of laundry. Dinners not made so takeout needs to be ordered. More tears and begging Mommy not to go to work.

Guilt. Guilt. GUILT!

I want to be there for them all the time. I want to be the one who takes them to school and gives them hugs and kisses. I want to wish them a good day and wave thirteen thousand times to them as I walk away. I want to be the one to greet them after school and hear all about how awesome or terrible their day was. I want to cheer them on or be there to pick up the pieces.

Going back to work is the pits. This week will be interesting as it will be my first, of many, evening shifts. I won’t be there to tuck them in, read Harry Potter, find missing stuffies.

The husband is perfectly capable of doing these things. So it’s not like I’m worried about that. It’s hard because for the last 8 years this has been my job. My job is the home. The kids. The dog. Everything. Trying to find balance again is taking some work. I am very thankful that my job is casual. I can pick up lots of shift or take no shifts. I think once I am in the game a bit more the kids will start to feel balance coming back as well.

The guilt is crappy. I want to give them just about everything and anything they want. Thankfully I am not a complete idiot either. I am loving this job. I am thrilled to have this opportunity and down the road I think some better jobs will come from it. The mom guilt is just going to have to be dealt with the best I can.

Tomorrow we are going out as a family. Something we haven’t been able to do in almost a month. I can’t wait and the fun part is the kids have no idea that we are going. I enjoy surprising them! Off to the Science Centre in Michigan!

I have some fun idea of things the kids and I can do on the days that I am off and I hope that this will help them see that they are still very important to me.


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Proud Mama


On June my Grandma came to my house. We had lots of fun. We even got grabbed my Grandma? I love her and she loves me.


My March Break was awesome because my Grandma came to my house and we went to the mall. And we have fun together. Then we went out for lunch and it was yummy.


On Mother’s Day. My Mom loves me and I love her too. My family loves her too. We went out for supper and my Mom and the rest of us too had lots of fun.


On Father’s Day we had supper with my Nana and Papa. We had tacos for supper. And it was my Papa’s birthday. We had vanilla cake and is was delicious. Dad had two pieces of cake. I had one piece of cake. It was delicious.



One day I went out with my Aunt. We went to a park with my cousin Cooper. We had lots of fun. He loved to chase me. We also had Timbits. We loved the Timbits.

This was a bit of a tough year for Isabelle at school. We knew that she wasn’t doing well in the French Immersion and I had wanted to switch her to English before the start of Grade 2, yet we didn’t. We were told by many that it would simply just “click” when she was in the 2nd grade.

There was no “click”.

There was a lot of tears. There was a lot of self doubt. There was a lot of emotions that I personally feel no 7/8 year old should feel. No one should hate school in the second grade. After 3 days of pleading with the principal to let us change her to English half way through the year, I am so happy to say that Isabelle loves school!

We have seen such a wonderful change in the work she brings home. Yes, she is a little behind in some areas but her teacher has been wonderful and working very hard with her. Isabelle should be caught up to speed a few months into the third grade. I am going to do my best to work with her over the summer. Her teacher has given us some great, simple, idea of ways to work with her in ways that doesn’t feel like “work” over the summer break.

I was going through Isabelle’s back pack tonight. It’s the end of year so there is lots of paper work coming home. I found a few things I thought I would share with you.

Isabelle is a bit behind in her spelling. This is largely because they are told in French to sound out the word and just write what they hear. They are taught a little differently in English. She’s catching up but it’s going to take the work this summer to get her where she needs to be.

I’m so proud of her and all the hard work she’s done this year. Most of all, I’m just happy that Isabelle is happy. I should have listened to my gut and had her switch over to English sooner, but thankfully she doesn’t hold that against me!



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According to Google this is the translation.

adjective: defeated
  1. having been beaten in a battle or other contest.
    “the defeated army”
    • demoralized and overcome by adversity.


This is how I am feeling today. I recently got some really great news, which I can’t share here just yet, and I should be really pumped. However, I am feeling defeated and that’s getting in the way of my joy.

Here’s hoping tomorrow is a better day.

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My kids are weird…

My kids think it’s absolutely awesome that there is the slightest possibility that they will be latch-key. To bring you up to speed if you don’t know what Latch-Key is, here it’s before and after school care run by the day care that is associated with the kids school. I believe I have touched on this topic before in a previous rambling…errh….blog post.

The kids are pumped for me to get a job. If I have an interview during the day while they are at school, the first thing they ask when they seem me after school is “Do I start Latch-Key tomorrow?” I’m such an asshole when I say “Nope!” and then they act as if I have crushed their soul and they are about to give up their will to live. It’s rather comical for me, hence the asshole part since I really want to tell them yes only to then say “hahaha just kidding!!!”

Yesterday, tearfully, Madeline told me about a conversation she had with one of her friends at school. She told this friend that I was having some interviews and would be getting a job, thus she would no longer be able to exit the school with her and walk her towards the busses. This friend got a bit upset. This made Madeline upset. So Madeline, with her big loving heart, drew her friend a picture which seemed to help resolve the situation. I suggested to Madeline that she not talk about her being Latch-Key until she is actually going to be Latch-Key. She agreed as she didn’t want to upset any more of her friends.

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Bad Mood Monday

8 year old woke up in a bad mood. Sigh. This generally leads to the rest of us ending up in a bad mood as well. I am happy to report that we managed to avoid this. Hooray. Sometimes I never know if I should try to be calm and understanding or just cut straight to the cut the crap, I’m not putting up with it. Today, it had to be cut the crap. I needed to keep my head in a good place. I needed the 7 year olds to be in a good place also.

dominoesMy kids are sort of like dominoes. When one falls the rest do too.

I have been job hunting for the past few weeks. Today I had a meeting for a job and needed to be calm and relaxed before this. The husband is working days so I have to deal with the kids in the morning, getting them ready, fed, lunches made and then get myself half ready too.

Sometimes the 8 year old just needs to be put in her place. I explained to her, that if she needed to discuss her feelings about this morning we could do so after school. She seemed cool with that idea. Phew.

I am happy to say that this mornings meeting went well. No job yet, but a successful first step towards a job that I really hope to get!

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Inside-Out-Meet-your-emotions-3 I need some sort of guide to explain to me what is going on inside the mind of my 8 year old sweet demon daughter. I also need some serious work on patience. I may have to see about a daily yoga class or some sort of road map to inner peace.

We seem to be going through a lot of highs and lows and some serious anger outbursts lately. I am getting the feeling that the 8 year old doesn’t even know what she’s mad about 3/4 of the time. I spent a bit of time walking around the book store last week, sipping my SF ice caramel macchiato and decided to look for some books to read with the 8 year old about her feelings. She is feeling all her feelings at once lately and taking it out on the rest of us.

The 8 year old came home from school last week, she seemed happy when I picked her up, walked in the door promptly threw her back pack down and started barking out orders for her siblings to put their stuff away. All the while hers was just sitting there in a pile. When I calmly asked her to stop parenting for me and asked her to do her own jobs, well…………holy shit. Breakdown of epic proportions.

The 8 year old is also getting jealous of the two 7 year olds. She has accused me of loving one of the 7 year olds more than her because that 7 year old and I like to snuggle. She seems to forget that she does not, yet when reminded that doesn’t seem to factor into her reasoning. So then it’s on to whatever else she can dream up to be jealous/angry about.

I was at Costco the other day and picked up some new back packs for the 7 year olds. I did not get the 8 year old one at the time because I thought that she and I could go pick one out together. She immediately notices the new back packs and that there are only two. Does she give me a chance to explain, nope. None. Immediate blow up. I let her blow up. Then explain my reasoning. The look of “ohhhh, I see” comes across her face and she exits the room.

Honestly, I can’t fucking win. Even if I had bought her a backpack there would still have been a problem or she would have liked the one I bought for the female 7 year old more.

8 year old has said we don’t do anything together without the 7 year olds. I was using this backpack purchase as some time together. Hopefully she will come to understand this as well.

Tonight after bedtime, I will be madly searching the Interweb world for blogs of parents with spawn in my age bracket. Especially girls. I can’t be the only mother feeling this way….can I? So if you happen to know of a great blog to read or even a book or perhaps you have written a manual on raising girls, I’d love to read it!!

The countdown is on for separate bedrooms….the husband doesn’t quite agree. I believe I need to go away for a week’s vacation for him to maybe, just maybe, get a better idea of what is going on.


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Mommy does not do 4:30am

untitled22Even if I could drink endless amounts of caffeine I don’t think it would help how sleepy I am feeling today.

Aidan is not generally an early riser. If it hadn’t been for the mysterious shadows on his walls at 4:30 this morning he wouldn’t have woken me up asking if he could please sleep on the couch. I wasn’t really in the mood to argue. He really could have just gone there on his own. I think he just needed a little reassurance that the shadows weren’t out to get him. He had barely turned to leave and already my eyes were clamping shut.

I don’t do early.

It felt like minutes when I awoke to “MOOOOMMMMY!”

My brain didn’t really understand at first. Then it happened again. “MOOOOOMMMMMMMMMYYYY I NEED HELP!!”

Shit! I’m up! Come out to the living room because he’s supposed to be on the couch but he’s not there.

“Where are you!?”

“I’m in the front bathroom and I had a poop shoot out!!”

I’m to tired to even find this statement funny. Poor kid. Thankfully he can haul ass to the bathroom when needed. I can always count on him for that. Help him get cleaned up and back into his bed on the couch.

It’s 5:05am when I get back into bed. Close my eyes. Eyes pop open. Close my eyes again. Eyes basically tell me to shove it. I’m awake. So I checked the usual stuff out on my phone, Facebook, Pinterest, Instagram and was about to play some Candy Crush when I turned off my phone and decided to try to sleep again.

I was out. Felt like another two minutes went by before my phone went off signaling it was time to get up and get the kids moving. Oh my god I wanted to die. I was having the best sleep of my life. That phone is lucky I didn’t smash it with the baseball bat that sits next to my bed. I re set the alarm so I could have another 25 minutes of sleep. It was great but not awesome.

Thankfully Aidan seems to be feeling just fine now. No more poops rocketing out of his tiny body. I am seriously looking forward to the weekend and keeping all my fingers and toes crossed that the kids will let me stay in bed until 9am like they did last weekend!!

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Missing the warm weather of Florida

The vacation was awesome! One of the countless best parts, was that no one hurled on the drive!! Hooray for small victories! I like to think it’s because I had been telling the kids for weeks prior to stay extremely far away from any of their friends with germs!!


The kids did really well on the drive. We only had one meltdown from Madeline part way through the second day. Our first day was really long. Approx. 9 hours of driving so it was quite understandable that at least one of them was losing their minds by the middle of the second day.

Once at Liki Tiki the kids were back to their usual selfs. The hard part was convincing them to get back in the van after unloading to go pick up groceries. We bribed them with the promise of swimming afterwards.

During our time there we went and explored Wonder Works, Legoland Florida and we went to see La Nouba by Cirque du Soleil at Disney Springs. The rest of our time was spent at Liki Tiki enjoying the pools, mini golf, paddle boats and watching Grandpa fish in the pond.

It was sure hard to pack it all up at the end of the two weeks and head for home. The weather was hard to come home to, it was cold and rainy. Husband still had a week off work, I felt like we should have stayed an extra week in Florida!! However, it was great to be home and back in our own beds. Jersey was well loved while we were gone but she too seemed happy to be home with her family.

In other news…..


I am done! Woohoo! I completed my program with a 4.95 GPA!! I have applied to Graduate and Convocation is in June. I won’t be attending but I am super pumped to be finished. So now it’s on to the job hunt!!

Now that I’m done with school…just a little behind.